It took me most of my life to understand this.
I had to lose everything (not once, mind you, but several times) to finally admit that something deeper was going on.
That life was mirroring back my inner state of mind.
But let’s go back a bit. Back to the time I thought I had it all—a husband I adored, a wide circle of friends, a great job.
My inner state of mind must have been pretty good, right?
I had done a lot of work on myself—true. I was allowing abundance in—yes. But I had only scratched the surface. I hadn’t drilled down to the real issues.
I wasn’t aware of the thoughts I was thinking on a daily basis, the false beliefs that were causing chronic guilt and unhappiness.
“I need to be perfect for people to love me”
“I can’t say no, or I’ll be rejected”
“I can’t be honest, or I’ll hurt the ones I care about”
“I have to put the needs of others before my own”
“I have to be nice. It’s my job to keep the peace”
These thoughts drove me to a point of exhaustion. I had a big, beautiful life, but I also had a severe case of anxiety that was wringing the joy from it.
I could barely breathe.
I didn’t realize the anxiety was my inner wisdom, trying to get my attention.
I just wanted it to go away.
So I stuffed it down. And covered it up. And medicated myself.
The truth was, I was too afraid to hear what my heart was saying.
“You need to end a thirty-year friendship”
“You aren’t ready to have a child”
“You need to question your childhood religion”
“You’re tired of being bound by social obligation”
“You have a deeper purpose”
Deep down, I truly wanted the freedom to be myself. I wanted to make my own rules and live by my own values—not the ones chosen for me by others.
But I was terrified to give up the life that I had, in order to have the life that I longed for.
So I stayed on the surface. And let things get worse.
In the end, I had to lose almost everything before I was willing to take responsibility for what was showing up in my life. I had to be cracked open before I would listen to the guidance system that had been there all along—an internal voice that was directing me to a life I could have never imagined.
It took me a long time to own up to the truth that I'm a powerful woman who (surprise! surprise!) craves a contemplative life.
It was hard to admit that as much as I love people, I'm also an introvert and need time by myself.
And yet I had to. Because my deep purpose in life wouldn’t stop calling.
I began to question all my foundational beliefs and took a roller coaster ride of self-discovery that changed me forever.
Along the way I met several great teachers—one of whom was Dr. Martha Beck. After training with this amazing woman, I started my own coaching practice where I now use my gifts of strength, intuition, and empathy to help people just like you face all that they need to face with courage and self-love.
This is the work I was born to do.
If you're ready, I can help you free yourself from a life that no longer serves you.
But please know that you don’t have to do it all at once. You don’t have to make a huge leap.
All you have to do is take the first step.
So, if you’re curious, click here and we’ll get started.
Your solutions and answers are waiting for you.